Scraping away the layers...

Today I scraped away layers of paint that I applied to my new painting- Oil Paints are great like that- you can easily wipe away mistakes that you make- Fortunately for you I am not trying to make any great analogies here- no parallels or hidden truths in this story.

The problem with painting something really large, and something that you will actually want to hang on your wall later is... You keep changing your mind! Aaah! Once I decide that I like something, later I look at it and say... why don't I do the barn scene I had planned from the beginning? So, now my canvas is all jacked up and I have to start over, lots of money in this painting- so it better be good- besides- my house smells like oil paint- and I think it is having an adverse affect on me.

Closed the eHarmony account today- I decided that it is too much stress! You are expected to answer too many questions, read too many profiles- not me- I am already worn out by it- and so is my wallet.

No real news on the whole dating front right now. Haven't heard from Corrie in a few days- she was gone on a womens retreat- they probably told her that online dating was of the devil and she decided that she never wanted to hear from me again- well, that's how the cookie crumbles. The great thing about being me and enjoying being single is that you are only let down for a few days- there are other girls out there, other fish to catch and fry, okay- I will stop with the cliche's. Truthfully, I am a little disappointed that Corrie hasn't emailed or called. I thought we had a connection, I thought we clicked- maybe that clicking sound I was hearing was her turning me off- and then theres always that question- perhaps this is a little premature- maybe she is still out of town, maybe she will be gone all week- maybe she doesn't have internet access- maybe God is testing me- maybe- hopefully I pass this test- gotta learn to trust him, not be upset if this doesn't work out- was hoping to do some dinner this weekend as she had mentioned in her last email- but no word and that may mean no dinner.

Still feeling lethargic today- think I will paint a while and then hit the hay-

Peace, love-