The Discipline that Shames Me...

I went to church last Sunday and I sat on the second row. Tom Nelson our pastor stood up there, 54 years old, a picture of discipline and integrity. I have been on many trips with him, sat by him on airplanes, watched him read his Bible when we were just stopping to pick up the rental car, watched him go home and lift weights on Valentines day at 9:30pm.

I am not this disciplined.

I look for excuses to not work out. Oh, the plane was delayed? Looks like I can't work out tonight. Oh, It's Valentines Day- no working out for me!

But the discipline problem is not just with working out, it is with reading my Bible, cleaning my house, paying my bills, doing my laundry, and just in general- taking care of business.

When I am around people that do take care of business- (Joe Bruner, Tom Nelson, Scott Sargeant, Doug Hudson) that are disciplined- I am ashamed. I see them, and I admire the heck out of them. Saying "NO" to themselves, paying their bills on time, moving up in their jobs, reading their Bibles. It shames me.

I know that everyone has their own set of problems, their own hand that had been dealt them, their own issues, but in the areas that we can control, I think it is important that we control them.

This will be my 6,978th time to try to be more disciplined, but I would like to be more disciplined, man I would like to be... I would like to be unashamed.