A Man of Many Friends May Come to Ruin... Proverbs 18:24

I moved to Plano last Christmas, literally, I packed my stuff on Christmas Eve. It was the best decision of my life. Too many times I have let friends and relationships hold me back from where I am going. Life is like that, I don't like it, I didn't set up the rules.

I have lots of friends, and since the move I have had to be more selective with the people that I spend my time with. I never intend to hurt people, but I realize that sometimes letting people go is painful.

I read a book by T.D. Jakes that was called, "Loose that Man and Let Him GO!" Jakes talked about this phenomenon, of how some people can't seem to let go of people in their lives, how we feel obligated to keep relationships despite the fact that they are holding us back. Why? A lot of times it is because of our own insecurities, sometimes we do it because we think we are helping the other people involved in the relationship, the reason's are many, but the reality is the same- Let. Them. Go.

I used to get upset when people moved on. I felt like they were abondoning me, but that is not true, they were just living their lives for themselves, doing what was best for them- and that is what I am trying to do. I hope that my friends that have suddenly stopped calling and stopped returning my phone calls realize that I wasn't trying to avoid them, I apologize for not being able to return your call immediately, but sometimes I just didn't know what to say. How do you tell someone, "I love you, but I don't want to be best friends anymore?" "I love you, but we've grown apart, our lives are heading in a different direction, we don't click, this friendship is one sided, you are too needy, you are sucking me dry, you are wearing me out!" How do you say that? If you know of a good way, then please, please- tell me.

My biggest problem is that I am like Will Ferrell when he plays that bad guy in Austin Powers- the Spy who Shagged Me. When Austin asked him anything three times, then he would finally tell them the answer. If you ask me three times to do something, then invariably I am going to say yes no matter how it affects me. Perhaps to you going out to dinner seems like no big deal, it's only 10 bucks, but maybe I said yes EVERY SINGLE DAY for the last year and now I don't have the money to pay my bills. Perhaps to you it seems like I only come and visit once a month, but in reality, I have only spent 5 saturday nights at my apartment in the 9 months that I have lived there.

I know many of you may be reading this post and thinking, "Is he for REAL?" the answer is "YES!" People don't like taking no for an answer, so I just stop calling you back because I know that you will want something and I won't be able to say no because I want to make you happy because making you happy makes me happy- but then later I am miserable.

So, to the people that I do spend a lot of time with, those of the friends that stick closer than brothers, Joe, Jimmy, Cody and his family, Braun, Dumas, Alan, my parents, my sisters... those are the people that have been there for me time and time again, people that understand me, and love me, people that I find never wear me out, or if they do, they are worth it. For them I will go the extra mile, I love them, we are inseperable. Thanks for being there when I needed you.

To all my other friends, I love you, just don't set your expectations real high when it comes to our friendship- I am really not worth the hassle.

Also- I am working on another, much better, CSS based design that will literally, KNOCK YOUR SOCKS OFF- just kidding- it won't be that good.

But, if you are looking for the photo websites then they are located at:

www.postednote.com/wedding.htm
www.postednote.com/waco.htm
www.postednote.com/eddosroom.htm