Life as a DVD

Pause

This past week has been hard, my life has been on pause, a suspended state of being where I cannot move forward or back. With the passing of Cody's dad we all realized the fragility of life. No one likes to think about mortality, but we all know eventually we will die. The good news is that for Christians there is joy knowing that we are going to spend eternity in Heaven. Part of us yearns to have Steve back, but the other part rejoices that he is in Heaven where we all hope to be someday.

Rewind

My mother hurt her back two weeks ago. She can hardly walk. I went out to visit her on Friday and then again on Saturday and then one more time on Sunday. I love my mom, and I hate to see her in pain. I want to "will" her back to health. I want somehow to just be able to make things better. I can't. If I could turn back the hands of time and somehow change the series of events that led up to her hurting her back I would. If I could tell her not to lift heavy objects or try to move a really large bed all by herself, then I would. But I can't time travel and even if I could my mom probably would still have tried to move that bed by herself no matter how many times I tried to tell her not to. She is very independent like that, and when she sets her mind to do something, only God can stop her- and maybe this time He did.

Fast Forward

Looking ahead I realize the need to start taking better care of myself. I had already started down this road last year in October when I started working out again. But now I have even more determination to take care of myself. I won't life heavy objects using my back, I am going to continue watching what I eat, and I am going to try to get one of those physical's that older people get- Cholesterol check, heart check, the whole shibang- (maybe I'll pass on that whole prostate exam though)

Play

Life is never really paused. It is always on Play. Sometimes the story changes dramatically. There may be a plot twist, or a cliff hanger, or a tragedy but the story never ends- not even when we die. Steve's story will continue through the lives of his children. And he has a Stadium seat view like no other.

Will Mindi and Shaun have kids soon? Will Nita get a new dog? Will Cody become a rockstar? Will Travis write a philisophical book that will change the way the world views religion?

To be continued...