The Relentless Pursuit of Perfection

When does reality finally settle in? When do you finally realize, "Hey, I may never make the 100,000 a year salary that I thought I would make", "I may not be married by the time I am 30", "I might not be driving that white Range Rover next year".

You have to have your goals, you have to have your dreams, but sometimes you have to wake-up and realize that there is a fine line between realistic goals, and pure fantasy.

I think guys are more given to fantasy than women are- they are just more realistic. I see girls that want nice houses and nice clothes and nice cars, but they don't want to own their own island, or to marry a hot celebrity- and if they do, they don't actually think that there is a chance of either or both. Guys I think actually believe that there is a possibility that they could marry Cindy Crawford or Cameron Diaz or Demi Moore, and by guys I mean me.

I want to marry someone amazing, I want to drive a white Range Rover, and I want to be physically impressive. I want to be perfect. I am shallow like that. I am not joking. I should have posted this on my "I hate to admit it..." page, but it was really too long to post there.

I think that this is really the reason why I am still single - I know that I have so, so, so many imperfections and I want to fix a few of them before I latch on to someone. I want my wife to be proud of me, and I can't expect her to be proud of me until I am proud of myself. I want a wife that works out and enjoys being physically active, so I have to be in good shape and physically active. I want a good Christian wife that knows her Bible and knows what she wants, I need to be a better Christian. I want to marry someone that is stable financially, so I need to be stable financially.

So I think maybe you can see a clearer picture now of where I am at in my life - I have a lot of fixin' up to do. Everyone has their own personal goals, mine might be too grandiose or unrealistic, but I am not ready to give up on them yet, I am only 29.

On a lighter note- Chad and Lisa Miller are expecting... expecting me to hang out with them! No, really, they are expecting a baby - Congrats!