What Dreams May Come

Lately I can't stop dreaming about having children of my own. Yes, I want kids, but I sort of need to get married first- being a Christian and all we sort of believe that there is a certain progression of things. First comes love, then comes marriage, then comes a baby in a... well, you know.

Last night I had a dream that I had a kid and she looked just like Dakota Fanning. It was the first day of school and she was wearing all pink and had a little backpack. We held hands as we crossed the road to the school yard. Everything was very vivid, you could hear the laughter of children, the sun shining very brightly, and then came the tears. Little Dakota didn't want me to leave and so she started crying and it ripped my heart out. I remember looking around wondering if there was some way to make her first day of school less frightening, the dream was so real, I felt so helpless.

Last week I dreamt that I had a son and that I kept holding his chubby cheeks against mine, that feeling of holding a small child, the miracle of life, it makes me feel closer to God.

I worked at Kanakuk Kamps one summer and my first week there I met a little kid and he looked like a miniature version of me, we called him Mini-Me. He was six years old but he was about the size of a 5 year old. We would all go and get in the pool and he would just cling to me because his feet didn't touch the bottom. He had this habit of sticking his face right up against mine like a little puppy and he would hold tightly around my neck. I loved it.

At night we would tuck all 12 of these boys into their beds and tell them Biblical bedtime stories. Sometimes they would cry for their mom's, sometimes they would wet their beds, and once this little boy even pooped his pants - it was the closest thing to being a parent that I have ever come to, it was hard at times and frustrating, but at the end of the day I loved those kids, and I would have done anything for them.

I am turning 30 this year, and so maybe some men do have a biological clock and I think mine is ticking. I want kids, I want a wife, I want them NOW!

So if you are out there Miss Right, and you are ready to have some babies, give me a call.