Wednesday, May 03, 2006

A Series of Small Performances

Shakespeare was right when he said, "All the world's a stage". My life lately has been nothing but a series of performances strung together by momentary intermissions that have allowed for sleep and a trip to the snack bar.

Last week I went to Houston and I had to do a presentation and then I sat behind a table and smiled as people walked by uninterested in my blackberry services. I was acting like I was happy, but I was miserable. Houston is as humid as any armpit in Georgia in the middle of August and even the locals will tell you that the heat in Texas isn't so bad, it's the humidity that really gets you.

Later in the week we had a couple of appearances for the ManiAACs, and then I spoke at the boys home on Sunday and then Monday night was another ManiAAC appearance.

One summer when I worked at Kanakuk I remember Keith Chancey, the Kamp Director, telling us that we needed to always be "on". Even though we might have been there for 7 weeks sweating and working our butts off, for the kids, it was their first and only week and so we had to be just as excited for group 7 as we were for group 1. It was definitely a mental exercise that taught me to "act" as if I was happy on the outside even if I was a wreck on the inside.

Last night seemed to be the final scene in a series of performances. The mother of one of the ManiAACs passed away unexpectedly last week and the wake was last night. I put on my best suit and drove down to be there for support as this particular ManiAAC happens to be the only other rookie and has fast become like a brother to me. Some of the other ManiAACs showed up as well and it was cool to see the guys pull together and be there for each other. It was the first time I felt like something more than just a group of fat guys that liked to dance and have a good time, last night we were indeed family.

So far my performances have been Oscar worthy - I think. My smile is still firmly in place. My costume is nicely pressed and when the curtain is pulled back once again I hope I remember my lines for my next series of small performances.

12 Comments:

Ben said...

Sorry to hear that your friend is struggling... Also, I will continue to lift you up in prayer... that you able to be happy on the inside and not just be acting... Although, you can be sad and yet still have a Joy that only comes from God alone. Sometimes life is like this.

In short; you are in my prayers Eddie!

9:10 AM  
jes said...

I'm tracking with you, Eddie. I've been feeling the same way lately. Except not pressed, and not smiling.

9:34 AM  
Katie said...

eddo, you are a good friend to support your buddy in this tough time, and I've seen the "acting eddie" and the "real eddie"; don't feel bad if you need to step back and let the world see the real you

10:39 AM  
Edgy Mama said...

I'd give you an Oscar.

Sending support and good vibes to your friend.

11:09 AM  
steve said...

All the worlds a stage??

Didnt RUSH say that?

11:18 AM  
Eddo said...

Rush Limbaugh? He is in jail isn't he? Didn't he confess to illegally getting prescription drugs?

11:34 AM  
steve said...

No! The BAND "RUSH"

lol

12:18 PM  
Angelica said...

Sorry to hear that you are feeling that way.
I'll always be your #1 fan!

12:29 PM  
Heather said...

You are a great friend to go to the funeral. Hopefully you can find some real time soon.

Here's another Rush Limbaugh quote for you ;)

To-morrow, and to-morrow, and to-morrow,
Creeps in this petty pace from day to day
To the last syllable of recorded time,
And all our yesterdays have lighted fools
The way to dusty death. Out, out, brief candle!
Life 's but a walking shadow, a poor player
That struts and frets his hour upon the stage
And then is heard no more: it is a tale
Told by an idiot, full of sound and fury,
Signifying nothing

4:27 PM  
jes said...

shakespeare TOTALLY said that. i think it was in As You Like It.

7:10 AM  
Jayleigh said...

"act" as if I was happy on the outside even if I was a wreck on the inside.

I hate being that way, but it's an absolute must when you're dealing with the public on a daily basis.

Praying for you and your friend.

8:31 PM  
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