There's No Place Like Home...

Thank God I am back to my 8-5 schedule.

I am so thankful to be sleeping once again in my own bed.

To be using my own bathroom, my own soap, my own shampoo.

I am so thankful to be sitting at my desk, in my cozy cubicle, at my wonderful job.

I am so thankful for the few hours I had last night alone, watching desperate housewives, eating chinese take-out, drinking diet coke out of one of MY glasses.

I LOVE my family and friends, but 4 days away from home is just too long. I LOVE my apartment, I love my space. Dorothy from the Wizard of Oz said it best-

There's no place like home...
There's no place like home...
There's no place like home...

I posted a note to ask how your thanksgiving went? Did you see it? Did the relatives come in to town, did you have Pumpkin Pie and Turkey, and gravy and of course mashed potatoes? Did you sit around in the living room watching the Cowboys win in the fourth quarter? Did you play games and laugh and wonder how in the world you could have consumed so many rolls in one sitting? Were you truly thankful for all the people surrounding you or was there that one person, or possibly two that drove you crazy? Did you cook? Did you help your mom clean up the kitchen? Did you pause and step back and survey your surroundings? Did you wonder why in the world you were so blessed?

I did.

I sat a while after my mom left for work and everyone was gone it was just my dad and I. We didn't always get along well growing up, we rarely saw eye to eye. We didn't understand each other. Now we do. My dad told me something yesterday that I had forgotten. He said, "Eddie, when you graduated high school at 17 you told your mother, 'I graduated high school today and dad doesn't even know who I am'." I don't remember saying that, but I probably did. I never felt like I could please him growing up. But God has a way of working in peoples lives, changing people miraculously. My dad is now truly my dad. I can go to him for anything, he understands me and I understand him. We spent a lot of time yesterday just talking about the past and the present. We said some things that had long been unsaid, we asked questions of each other that needed to be asked. Part of the reason I stayed and behind was because of a blog I read from a girl named Sara over at Stickymuffin.

Here is part of what she said... and I took it to heart.

Dont forget birthdays, or anniversaries. Dont forget to tell the people you love that you love them. Dont forget that work can wait.....but children will grow up and important events and milestones will come and go whether youre there or not. I want the people I care about remember that I was there, rather than the excuses I gave bc I wasnt. I do everything I can to make sure that I am at family events. When I was a freshman in college I was on the rowing team. I had to miss my grandparents 50th wedding anniversary celebration bc I had a meet that weekend. I dont row anymore, and Ill never get back that I missed that day. Im not in the pictures, or a part of any of the stories they tell. After my dads stroke I would inform, not ask, my boss when I would miss work bc of a family reunion or other event. I made my choice as to what was more important. Work can wait, and if they disagree with me, I can find another job.

I love you.

Happy Thanksgiving.

What am I thankful for...

A God that sent his son to die on the cross for my sins.

For Jesus that he was willing to do the father's will.

Parents who raised me so well.

For great sisters that I am so proud of.

For amazing friends that have become like family- The entire Miller family, Joe and Amber Bruner, Jimmy McWhinney, Braun Smith, Alan Meadows, Nikki and Jeremy Johnson, The Talburts, Amanda Adams, Tim Simpson and so many more that I won't name here. I love you and I thank God for you.

I am thankful for the people that read my website that I don't even know and I appreciate those of you that do read it that know me, the uplifting comments, the laughter- I thank you.

I am thankful for a Great Job.

I am thankful to be living in an amazing country that allows for so much freedom and opportunity.

I am thankful for the troops that are overseas fighting to help make the world a better place.

I am thankful for Turkey and Football and Pecan Pie, and Pumpkin Pie, and Stove Top Stuffing (I like it the best) and brown and serve rolls (I just love brown and serve rolls!!!)

I hope everyone has as much to be thankful for- I love you all.

Have a HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!

Sometimes I write poems and then read them later and wonder what in the world I was thinking at the time. Here is one such poem. I titled it...

Clever People

People think they are so clever
They turn their knobs, I pull their levers
What makes me turn, is the words they spout
They talk a lot, they prance about
Knowing all, and nothing at the same time
they miss the point, they miss the sign
That points them, leads them, to where freedom lies
Instead their bound, and their inside dies
Fed with nothing but negativity
They rot within, they never see
That sometimes simplicity, taste so sweet
Delight in the little things, it’s such a treat!
But people rarely see the light
Until it’s too late, 6 feet, one night
buried with their empty goals
Their body’s a coffin, a box, no soul.
They missed it, oh yes, it passed them by
Not once, but twice, oh no, three times
Each time they laughed, and just moved on.
But no one remembers them, when they’re gone.

Phrases that stick.

I have these phrases that run through my mind all the time. They are normally triggered by an external stimulus and like Pavlov's dog (overused analogy but it works) I am conditioned to respond with the same response.

Like when someone uses the word "too"- I almost always think "Too, as in 'also' or 'in conjunction with'."

There are others as well, " Use i before e except after c or when sounded like a as in neighbor or weigh; and except seize and seizure and also leisure, weird, height, and either, forfeit, and neither."

There are also some songs that we used for multiplication tables that I still use - and I memorized them over 20 years ago! "9x6 is 54 - clap!"

Why is it that some things never leave your mind? They are as clear as day, you don't forget them, they don't even become fuzzy, but other things fade with time? Like I only remember part of the song for the Presidents of the United States, but I still remember the song for all the books of the Bible.

What makes the particular phrases stick? What phrases are stuck in your head?

10 things about going to Waco to see Joe and Amber Bruner

1. I can ALWAYS beat Joe at a fast game of racquetball. Sure he beat me every time we played, but that is because I let him. I noticed that he was feeling a little down on himself this week and so I said to myself, "Eddie, you should let Joe win, that will cheer him up." and it did.

2. TV trays are a God Send! We got food to-go twice and ate in the living room on TV trays. I love them- I don't have any of my own, but I really like them.

3. Breakfast Cookies - Always be sure to make enough cookies the night before to be able to eat them for breakfast the next morning. Joe says that when eaten with milk it is just like cereal- who am I to argue.

4. There is a such thing as TOO MUCH SportsCenter!!! I didn't think it was possible, but it is. I love you Joe- but I saw that Pacers/Pistons fight 36 times!!!

5. Amber is the sweetest girl on the face of the Earth. Ladies, take note, guys want to marry someone sweet. Hotness helps too, but BE SWEET!!!

6. Fabris Softener- I don't know what type of Fabric Softener Amber uses but everything smells so fresh and clean.

7. Cool Friends- when you have your cool friends in town, introduce them to your other cool friends. I have to give a shout out here to the very cool "Anise" which is Joe and Amber's Italian friend. Anise is an seasoning, or an herb, it is the same herb whose oils are used in the licorice candy.

8. Eating - with good friends eating can be a sport. We literally had to go to the gym to burn off lunch so that we could enjoy dinner!

9. Listening - Joe and Amber are great listeners! Which is a good thing because I talk ALOT!!!

10. Laugh - Joe and Amber laugh at my jokes, even when they are not funny!! That is a good friend. I have to remember that when I am with my friends and they tell a joke that isn't funny.

8 Mile

This post has nothing to do with Eminem's autobiographical movie 8 Mile, but everything to do with the distance I signed up to run for the Turkey Trot this year.

This will be my fourth year to run the T-Trot. I love it. Thanksgiving is one of those days you look forward too, and then you get up in the morning with nothing to do but watch the Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade and wait for the food to get cooked. Or, if you are like me, sometimes you join in with the cooking. OR- you drve up to your relatives and sit around in their house which is always EXTEREMELY hot from all of the ovens and you are bored out of your gourd because all you want to do is eat and then go home and veg.

A good friend of mine who many of you know, David Cribbs, started dating Jenni Leo (now Cribbs) and her family runs the Turkey Trot every year so I sort of invited myself to go along. I don't run with Dave and Jenni anymore, I got my own group of Turkey Trotters and we have been running together the last 2 years.

So, this year I tried- in vain- to find someone that wanted to do the 8 miles with me. So maybe we wouldn't be able to run the whole 8, but come on- it would be FUN!!!

Alas, no one wants to run 8 miles on Thanksgiving Day just for fun. But THINK of all the turkey and pecan pie you could eat without worrying about gaining a single pound!!!

Cody Miller is going to run the T-Trot with me. I may only run the three miles because part of the fun is running with a good friend, but at the last minute, I might just jet off on that road less traveled and run the 8 that I have always wanted to run.

Two Roads diverged on a yellow path... I might take the 8 mile one less traveled by.

I feel like a Grumpamoose...

This morning I woke up feeling like a turd. I don't know if it was what I was dreaming about, or if it had to do with something else altogether.

At work we often have to go on these "Road Shows" a road show is where you go to another campus and help users in person as opposed to over the phone. I work for mobility, so we will take all of our various phones and show customers how to use the features, or help them to upgrade their current phone to a new one. I love the road shows, but I don't like having to tuck my shirt in. If you have been reading my site then you know that I weigh 360 pounds. I have been working on losing weight, but man, as I get older I find that it is much harder now than it was when I was in my early 20's.

When I was 23 I went on a super diet of colossal proportions. I had some serious goals that I wanted to meet and I lost 113 pounds in a little less than 10 months. I weighed just 218 pounds at one point. Over the past 5 years I have slowly put all that weight back on and then some. It started when I went back to school to get my MCSE. I was busy all the time and I stopped working out as much. I lived with my sister in Little Elm, I didn't have the money for the gym, I didn't watch what I was eating. Long story short, I went through a series of very stressful, very busy times where I didn't say "No" to myself in the area of eating.

I've been working out again- consistently- for about 6 weeks now. Maksim, my Russian friend has been working out with me and we have been making great progress, it has been great to work out with someone as I have mentioned before.

So, back to the Road Show story...

Last night I got out some khaki pants and a belt and I tucked my shirt in and was surprised at how big my stomach looked! What? It can't be possible. It was a real wake up call. I have to lose this stomach!!

One Month Left to Shop...

My birthday is a month from today- can you believe that? I will be 29 years old!! TWENTY NINE!!! That is one year away from thirty, which is halfway to 60, with is knocking on the door to death!! AAAAAAHHHH!!!!

I apologize to all my 30 year old friends, I just don't want to join you- not yet, and so this last year of being in my twenties I plan to party like I am in my teens!!!

My Birthday is December 17th and here is my wish list.

• Kill Bill Volume 1 and 2
• Destiny's Child- Destiny Fulfilled
• Josh Groban CD's
• Five for Fighting CD's
• Nike Running Shoes - Silver please
• Full Body massage - at least an hour - 30 minutes is just a warm up
• Kenneth Cole "Black" cologne
• Calvin Klein "Escape" cologne
• Subscription to Men's Health or Men's Fitness Magazine
• Socks - I wear a size 13 shoe so please don't get me size 9...
• Jewelry- I like platinum and diamonds - no gold please - it is for women and I think women prefer it to be bedecked in diamonds.
• Ralph Lauren Comforter something masculine, not plaid or jean please
• Gift Cards to Block Buster, Best Buy, or any place that sells food

You can send these gift items to:

Edward Charles Renz
600 Legacy Dr. Apt. 1017
Plano, Texas 75023

Please don't feel like you need to wait until the 17th as my birthday is so close to Christmas it is always nice to receive gifts early.

Love. Love. Love.

Josh Groban

Sunday night we watched the American Music Awards- I mentioned this in yesterday's Weekend update, but what I didn't mention was that the best performance of the night was Josh Groban. I first saw Josh on an episode of Alley McBeal- he sang "You're Still You". I remember he was only 21 at the time and he could already sing like Andrea Bocelli and Pavarotti- He's amazing.

Sunday night when he was singing towards the end the vocals were so amazing, so crystal clear, so wondrously perfect that only God in heaven could have created a voice so beautiful. It reminded me of something I read recently in Madeline L'Engle's book, Walking on Water. L'Engle said that "one day when we finally do communicate with people on other planets, that it may not be that we communicate with a language but with music." That is the great thing about art and music, it transcends the boundaries that our cultures and religions often limit us to.

So back to Josh Groban...

I plan to buy all of his CD's, the music is just that good- buy it, listen to it, drink a Starbucks Papricka Mocha and thank God that life is so sweet.

Much Love.

Weekend Update


The weekend was quite relaxing- Friday night I went and worked out at the Gym and then I stayed home and grilled some steaks that Mr. T gave me. Delicious!

Saturday I got up and went to Starbucks. Here in Plano the Starbucks in the Barnes and Noble is actually Starbucks- you have to be careful because sometimes the coffee shop is merely Barnes and Noble cafe serving Starbucks coffee. At the B&N cafe they have similar drinks- some are called Caramel Marchachinnio or Pecan Nut Latte- and they taste very similar to a Caramel Macchiato and a Toffee Nut Latte, but they are not the same.

This particular Starbucks is in our Barnes and Noble and they wery busy, busy, busy. It was only 9am on a Saturday- the rest of Plano was still asleep, but everyone that was awake apparently made a mad dash for Starbucks.

After about a 5 minute wait I finally got my Venti Caramel Macchiato, normally I go with a Venti Mocha, or perhaps a Grande Pumpkin Spice Latte (which I think is just a Mocha with some Nutmeg sprinkled on top), but every now and then you just have to change it up.

As you can see- I have been working on site redesign, unfortunately I am trying to learn CSS and Dreamweaver and I have been using my site as a test site- ugh- how ugly is that! So sorry for the inconsistencies.

Back to my weekend...

While at B&N I bought Walking on Water by Madeline L'Engle. Mrs. L'Engle also wrote "A Wrinkle in Time". I didn't know this but she is a Christian author who has published many works on various subjects. Walking on Water is a book about Christianity and Art and how the two are intertwined. She says, "All art is religious". Of course you have to put this in context - besides, what is the definition of "Art"?

Jimmy McWhinney recommended the book. He is one of those friends that when he says, "You should try this..." I ALWAYS try it. He is one of the few people that I go to for advice and wise counsel. So far I am about 1/3rd of the way through the book and I am really enjoying it.

So, Saturday I went to get my oil changed after I picked up the new book and the caramel macchiato. Getting your oil changed can be quite tricky, the normal cost of an oil change can vary from 14.95 to 39.95 dependent upon how full service the oil change is. When I life Kwik Kar my account balance had decreased by 94.85- and that was with discounts! The guy kept coming out and saying, "Your transmission fluid needs to be changed, Your wiper blades are old, your fuel filter is dirty." Well Duh, the truck is 15 years old- everything is old and dirty!!

So, he was right, it was time to change a few things, but not the fuel filter, I just had it changed about 8,000 miles ago and it didn't need it yet. That is the problem with going to those places, how do you know if they really performed any of the services they just charged you for? Maybe they just put new oil in and didn't change the filter? How would I know if they put in new transmission fluid? Or drained the rear-end? I just have to have faith, but one thing is for certain, the truck does seem to be running better.

Saturday night I went to a friends and played poker. Our poker games usually last almost till morning- this one lasted until 4:45am- fortunately for me I left at 2AM- I was tired and ready to hit the hay. I lost money this time- which has only happened twice in all the times that I have played- which now has to be about 15 times.

Sunday I went and played glorious racquetball with Travis, Cody, and Nik. We had a blast- it was Nik's first time to play and he beat Cody and myself. He did say though that he used to play tennis a lot- something I still can't play despite my friend Maksim's efforts to teach me.

Sunday night I stayed at Cody's. We had chicken and rice for dinner with wonderful brown and serve rolls, and then we watched the American Music Awards. Did you see Anna Nicole Smith? She had to be on Cocaine or something cause she was high as a kite! As my dad used to say. He also used to say, "Coked to the Gills" - which she might have been. She was actually wearing a Trim Spa necklace- hilarious- can you say White Trailer Trash? Oh, that is a little harsh, I am sure it is hard being Anna Nicole Smith- everyone has their demons- hers is lack of brains.

Now, in closing, I can't believe Thanksgiving is NEXT WEEK!!! I am really looking forward to it- I plan to have some more of those awesome brown and serve rolls!

Love ya!

The Andiamo Cafe

Dinner last night with Rachel G. was fun. We talked and talked and talked some more. Rachel is a good talker, but she is also a good listener- I like to think that I am the same.

The Andiamo Cafe was a little romantic spot on Beltline. The atmosphere was warm and cozy- picture a dark room, candles on every table, approximately 20 tables, a small bar and a huge wine list. This place was not catering to the young, hip, and single crowd. Apparenlty it wasn't catering to much of any crowd because the place was pretty empty.

The food was nothing special. Which I find this to be the case a lot of times when I go to independently owned Italian restaurants. According to Dave Cribbs, in Italy the food is somewhat bland and is quite as delicious as the Italian food Americans have grown to love.

All in all dinner was nice and it was great getting to see Rachel. I will not be going back to Andiamo- at least not for another 15 years...

Dinner with Friends

This morning I had a Venti Mocha from Starbucks. The place was already decorated for Christmas, they also have bags of Starbucks Christmas Blend all over the store which remind me of Jimmy McWhinney.



Now on to the topic of today's discussion...

This week I am having lots of dinners with lots of friends. You should never wonder why I am 6'5" 350- it is because I am always eating with you!

This week a good friend came into town and we had dinner at the Blue Mesa Grill in Addison, it was delicious. I had spinach and chicken enchiladas and for dessert tres leches cake with mango kiwi salsa- the best non-chocolate cake I have ever had- I actually think I would take this over chocolate cake any day. (Did I just say that?) Rachel G. is a good friend from Lubbock. She works at Tech. We met when we used to work for the same company, Custom Food Group. We have kept up via email.

Last night I had dinner with the Talburts, the menu was surf, turf, and Thai. Mr. T apparently spent the entire day planning this smorgasboard of meats. We had shrimp, steak, scallops, and a chicken-mushroom-rice-ginger soup that was really tasty. Eating dinner with the Talburts is always an event- one thing for sure - it is never boring.

Nikki Johnson stopped by and of course Mr. T made her eat something and take something to-go. (Mr. T is good about that- he is wonderfully generous.) It was really nice getting to see Nikki, she is such a good quality friend. You forget that sometimes when you are away from your quality friends. And she is a laugh riot. She is the best at telling stories that will just make you crack up.

Tonight I am going to dinner with Rachel G. again, then I am off to Waco tomorrow to hang out with Joe B. and Amber. Then next week I am supposed to have dinner with Angie B. and Amanda W. - And the Holidays haven't really even started!

Side Hugs and Kisses- on the cheek!

I still feel like a KID!!!

I work for a big company, and I do grown up things, but I still feel like a kid...

When I call up sales reps and they start asking me all kinds of high level questions about international travel and orders and crap- I just BS my way through and say everything with confidence or use the old stand by- "Let me get back to you on that". Little do they know that I have no idea what I am doing, but in business you realize a great number of problems are handled this way, and by this way, I mean BS.

The question is who is the better BS’er, and frankly, I am pretty good at the BS.

I remember when I was an IT Manager at Custom Food Group, they kept expecting me to make all these big decisions and go to meetings and work overtime and I was like- What? I am only 24!!! I am not ready for this! I want to be a kid!

Now, I don’t want to be a kid anymore. But... when do you finally feel like you are a grown up? Does it happen after you have your own set of kids? Does it happen after 30? Has it happened to you?

Please tell me if there is a Grown-Up Fairy out there that will one day come and put a certificate of adulthood under my pillow and once I read the certificate I will be entitled to "A grown up mentality thereby forsaking all feelings of youthfulness and childishness. Said grown up will feel mature when talking to other grown ups about grown up things and will no longer feel the need to make fun of other grown ups that act too grown up. Also, upon receipt of Grown-Up certification, you will no longer refer to Adults as Grown-Ups."

I want to grow up. I don’t wanna be a Toy’s R Us kid.

My Dad's 70th Birthday Party

Happy Birthday Dad!!!

Just so you know I am posting this just a couple hours after the party finished- a Posted Note first.

Sitting on Cody Miller's couch watching Die Hard 2 on channel 27 I am drained from creating a 97 slide 110 picture slide show. This had to be the best party for a 70 year old I have ever been to. Let's see, we had mexican food catered and served by nifty people in white shirts and black ties. We surprised my dad by telling him that my sister Dena was winning the Citizen of the Year award- very plausible since she lives in Sanger and she probably is one of the best Citizen's.

My sister Precious owns her own professional Karaoke equipment, and yes, we broke it out and sang some karaoke. Of course I performed my Michael Jackson routine - will it ever get old? Will I still be doing this dance when I am 40? Probably.

My step sister Debbie showed up with two cakes. One said Happy Birthday, the other said, Aged to Perfection- both were decorated for Thanksgiving for some reason, apparently Cosco thought we were celebrating the birth of Thanksgiving a few weeks early. The cakes were delicious. One had chocolate mousse in the center and the other had cream cheese mousse in the center- can you say delish? I knew you could.

I set the slide show to three songs. 100 Years by Five for Fighting, You Raise Me Up - Josh Groban, and Remember When - Alan Jackson. I was sitting next to my dad and he was balling and so was I- it was a VERY emotional day for me. I cried again when my mom sang a song to my dad acapella. My mom has this beautiful voice that is always filled with so much sincerity and emotion it always makes me tear up.

Tomorrow is my parents 25 year anniversary. I added a few bonus slides in the slide show for the two of them. My parents got married when they were 23 and 43. They are still ridiculously in love and are quite possibly the best parents on the planet. I am CRAZY about them.

My Aunt Debbie showed up and scored major relative points. She brought my cousin Della and Della has the cutest little girl- her name is Alexis but we call her Lexy, she's beautiful and well behaved for 17 months and she has the most wonderful smile. I just love her.

I will have some pictures to post here this week - some good ones of my dad that are 50+ years old - they are awesome.

Cody's house is the best, and I am loving Cody's new laptop, he made a good buy.

THIS IS BUSH'S HOUSE!!

I have been reading www.dooce.com and everyone that reads her site seems to be a bleeding heart liberal that believes in evolution and doesn't believe in God. Sad.

I posted a comment because I was so tired of hearing all these people bashing President Bush.

Here are my comments and a few replies.

Eddo said at 12:36PM, 11.03.2004:
I voted for Bush because he is against abortion. I want him to veto Roe v. Wade. Since Roe v. Wade over 45 million children have been aborted. I am pro-choice, I just think the choice begins before the pregnancy occurs. Why should the child pay because you are too stupid to practice safe sex? Religious or not, I think it is frightening how irresponsible we are as a people as a whole and we expect the government to swoop in and fix all our problems. People act like President Bush has made all these decisions incorrectly and that he is a raving lunatic, I just don’t get what is so much better about Kerry. Every President goes into office thinking that he can change the world and the reality just isn’t so- President Bush has had to deal with 9/11 and a sinking Economy and that Economy was sinking when he took office. How quickly we forget- it could have been President Gore which is laughable. I bet the majority of the people that read this site, which I love, and Dooce I love you too, but I have a feeling that most of you believe in Evolution or the Big Bang theory, that there is no moral absolute, that there is no God, and that somehow we just came to be, and that we shouldn’t reach out a helping hand to other countries, and we should sit idly by and let everyone fend for themselves. Perhaps, you can change my mind? So far, no one has really given me a good argument as to why I should vote for Kerry. So tell me, what are your reasons?

A few of responses:

isma said at 12:53PM, 11.03.2004:
So, Eddo, this is off-topic, but you can maybe give a plausible argument against evolution, for instance. One that doesn’t involve “we came to be because God wanted it that way”. That sounds just as errand and arbitrary to me.And yes, I for one think that there is no God and specially no moral absolute, but I do believe in people and their right to live their lives as they want as long as they don’t interfere with other’s lives. Tolerance is a tricky word, Tolerance means to tolerate something that you think is wrong. That’s wrong. If you think something’s wrong, fight it (peacefully). The point is understanding there’s nothing wrong with gay marriage, for instance, but everything’s wrong about invading other countries and killing thousends for no good reason. That’s wrong and the world should not “tolerate” it.

donnaly said at 01:03PM, 11.03.2004:
EddoIf you think that practicing safe sex is such a great idea how can you support a government ties up international aid with NOT telling people about using birth control? And let’s make sure we don’t tell our children about it in school because if we don’t tell them, they won’t have sex at all! Right.


JustMe said at 01:40PM, 11.03.2004:
Eddo,
Here’s my argument. My best friend and his wife were expecting a baby. She began experiencing heavy bleeding. She became seriously anemic. The bleeding just wouldn’t stop. They had genetic testing done. The baby was so chromosomally malformed that it hadn’t a chance in heck of surviving outside the womb for more than a few hours of intense, ungodly pain. If the mother attempted to carry the child to full term, she had a better than 80 percent chance of dying herself, leaving her husband without a wife and her 2 year old son without a mother.
And yet they had less than 24 hours to make that decision, because one more day of gestation would have made that choice illegal in our state, despite the fact that carrying it would have killed her.
That’s why abortion should remain legal. Because what right do you have to tell her that she should die because she accidentally became pregnant with a baby that was going to kill her?

My final Response:

Eddo said at 02:15PM, 11.03.2004:
Isma and others that responded to me, I respect your comments and more than that I appreciate the mature responses that I receieved.
It saddens me Isma to think that you don’t believe that there is a God. Perhaps I am a weaker person, but when I look into the eyes of the people that I love, when I feel scraped out and hollow inside because I have lost someone that I love, when I look at the beautiful eyes of a new born baby, when I see a sunset, I can’t help but know in my heart that something out there greater than me, greater than this world created the universe. I can’t sit back and think that just by chance that we have so much variety and diversity on this Earth. I can’t look at the sun and just be amazed that somehow it is just far enough away from the Earth that we aren’t all cooked alive.
Why is it that we all have unique DNA? Why do we have different fingerprints? Why do we have unique voice tones? The list goes on and on, I believe it is because God made us special and unique. Psalm 139:13 For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. 14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. 15 My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, 16 your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.
……………………….
To JustMe- Your argument is a good one, and in that case I believe that you should do what you feel is best. I don’t stand here and think that I have all the answers, I don’t. But I hate to see that we kill unborn children because it is an inconvenience to our perfect lives.
Much Love

President Bush wins! Four More Years! - and now the possibility to elect three new supreme court judges and the opportunity to overturn Roe v. Wade.

My beliefs-

Gay Marriage NO
Abortion NO
God Yes
Morality Yes

And appently the majority of Americans believe the same way.

Today someone at work said, I can't believe that 1/3 of America is evangelical Christians- It wasn't the time or the place, but I wanted to say, "I can! and I am!" I am not just the president, I am also a client...

My Vote is for Sale!!

I love America, I LOVE DEMOCRACY. I like how heated this entire debate has become. I like the fact that in this election the president actually has to fight to win- and if you feel the same way I do, then you can buy my vote! That's right, for the low price of 39,995 I will vote for whoever you want me to, because not only is America a Democracy, but we are also a Capitalist society and I want to capitalize on this election.

In reality, I want President Bush to win, but I am reminded of a time when thought that the world was going to end when one Mr. Bill Clinton started running for office. A liberal? A Democrat? (Gasp!) Yes, President Clinton made some mistakes, yes he raised taxes, and yes, he got impeached, but the world didn't end. There was no need for me to go around removing Elect Bill Clinton signs from the front yards of unsuspecting neighbors, I probably shouldn't have burned those bags of poop on the doorsteps of the same ignorant democrats, in hindsight, I should have just left well enough alone.

This year, I mellowed a bit. I didn't get into too many heated debates, I tried to be open-minded as I listened to people try to tell me why they were voting for Kerry. None of the people I talked to had really good reasons. Unfortunately, politics appears to be a game, a game played by the media and by politicians and I feel that Americans are treated as cheap pawns, pawns that are toyed with and twisted and coaxed and coerced into believing promises that neither man knows whether or not they can fulfill.

I don't think that President Bush is a Ronald Reagan, or an Abe Lincoln, but I don't think that he is a Nixon, or a Carter either and I feel that right now he is better for our country than John Kerry. He is a good man with Christian values and he believes in the things that I believe in.

That's my story and I am stickin to it!

VOTE FOR BUSH!!!!

Hey- one more thing, I just finished John Lashmet's website so he will be blogging soon.

Let me know what you think of the colors- I picked them out and my laptop might be displaying them differently than your computer.

http://www.lashmet.net/

Love.

A Short Synopsis of my weekend...

Friday Night Poker- I won 9.55- not bad- my record is 32 dollars. We had two tables going because so many people showed up to play.

Saturday- Dave and Busters for my sisters birthday- the parental units were hilarious- watching them play video games was a riot!! Had a great time with the Family, Dave and Busters is a great place to hang out with the family.

Saturday night- Hang out time with Mindi and Shawn Keese- they are Cody's sister and brother-in-law and I just love them to death, they are some of my best friends in the world.

Sunday Morning- slept like a baby at Mindi's house in the guest bedroom- that bed is Magical!! Then Mindi woke us up and we had German pancakes, which are a cross between pancakes and waffles with lots of pecans on top- just plain delicious.

Sunday afternoon- food network, and then the Cowboy game- Cowboys won!!

Sunday late afternoon- Racquetball with Cody, Mindi, and Shawn- Shawn is good- and so is Cody for that matter- he surprises me all the time with how good he is- and we just laughed and had the best time.

Sunday night Nita- Cody's mom- made Lasagna and we passed out Candy to the trick-or-treaters until is started raining cats and dogs- literally- I know because I stepped in a poodle.

Driving home Sunday night was a nightmare- it rained and my windows fogged up and I had to pull off the road and wait a little while- which I NEVER do, I always try to just tough it out. But I am here, safe and sound, posting away....

Love you!